Better You

You might have shared a chapter or two of your life to some people and they tend to bloat it up, like, they know everything about you. Some don't realize it that those facts they carry with them about you were already your past or their judgments. Some keep holding on to those characters they knew 3-5-10-15-20 years ago. They continue with their lives but their leashes are still tied tightly in the past. They live in nostalgia and continue to put blame on you for the faults you've done several years back. They will never understand the light in your eyes and they will continue gnawing on the idea that they know you too well. This is where their lives evolved in. And when they get the chance to talk about you, they will talk about your college life, your dormitory life, your early 20s life or your 3 years ago life. Sad that you have to close their chapters and chuckle, they don't know you anymore. 

As much as you want to rehash some stories about your past, it sounds absurd already because you are facing a beautiful now, not even better days ahead of you but now. 

You tend to live consciously with what's happening in the present rather than be locked up with your past life. It's not escaping what others think of reality because it's theirs not yours. It's their choice to stay in their holding moments and dance in the tune of Butter Cup. There are some people who get drunk with so much nostalgia and have their present moment slipped away. Yes, just like that.

You came to the point of no return but keep moving forward. Peter Pan never wanted to grow up because he didn't want complications of growing old but he neglected to understand, he has to grow up not just grow old. And there are a lot of us who live to count their ages and blow candles each adding year to the number they believed as counter to their prime years. Just keep the pace and smile in every turn you take and smell the flowers and enjoy the streak of sunlight on your hair. 

You have come a long way and those who keep on pulling you back to the path you had been are those who live within their comfort zone, whether it's painful or party like, it will always be their decision to bathe on those pleasures. You? Continue changing for the better you, not bound to any rule. As long as you do not step on anybody to make yourself appear taller, go on and rule your world! They who dare say you are a deviant are those who live within what is normal and are afraid of what others have to say about them. 

Who you are yesterday is already your past hence you don't have to conforme with the expectations of your college friends or childhood friends or call them acquaintances. If they cannot accept how you live your life now, it's not your problem anymore, continue challenging your everyday to be better until you attain that best version of who you are.